Wild Strawberries News Alert!!

Hello all!!

You may have been wondering why I've been a little quiet with the posts for the past couple of weeks... well, that's because we have news that I can finally share with you all!! We are with child!!

First test - result was immediate - taken Tues 11/09/12

We have had our first scan, and are sitting at 11 weeks. I've been suffering from a lot of nausea, dizziness and general tiredness, but believe the end reward is well worth it. The scan image below was taken last week, when bubba was a mere 3.6cm - TINY! We also got to listen to bubba's heart beat, at the anticipated rate of 180bpm - will admit, it freaked me out quite a bit! It was moving around a lot, and the lady made suggested it was waving at us, which made me laugh and therefore took us a while to get my belly still to see bubba again.

First scan - 10 weeks, 2 days - Wed 24/10/12

We were trying desperately hard to wait until the 12 week mark, but we have known for about 6 weeks now and I just couldn't keep this news to ourselves anymore!! Stu is absolutely loving that we have a child on the way, and has been busy making many purchases to deck out the future nursery (he is so cute!!).

Well.. stay tuned for more news, as I'm sure I'll get that famous 'baby bug' and feel the need to share everything about our bubba. I also have my first antenatal visit next week.


With love,
Chantal

A Girl To Remember...

A few years ago I had a great friend named Catherine Smith. We met through TAFE, whilst studying Beauty Therapy... for the first few months we just made idle chit chat with one another, until she invited us all to a Bollywood night being held near her - I was the only one who put my hand up to go. From then on, we were virtually inseparable. We spent nearly every night together - drinking, partying, driving, or just chilling out at each others home.

Smithy in her Bollywood outfit
Smithy and myself drinking Red Rockets at Bollywood night.

Smithy's family invited me to spend New Years eve with them, which then proceeded to extend over a few days - and we all had a grand time. We also took couple weeks holiday to the Gold Coast, were we acted like touristy fools.
Pretending to be some more statues in Surfers Paradise
Surfers Paradise Chair
New Years Eve - Smithy, Stripper, Chantal
Mucking around in our hotel, Gold Coast
Cavill Ave, Gold Coast - New Years Eve
Over time we started helping one another with our personal problems, such as my alcoholism at the time. As such, I moved to Brisbane to create a new alcohol free environment for myself - and she was one of the select few that I chose to still have involved in my life.

Mekyna, Chantal and Smithy - my moving away party
Smithy, Chantal and Mekyna ready for a night out
After a few months of struggling to see each others, thanks to the 2.5-3 hr drive I had placed between us due to the move... I got an odd call from her. I don't know what it was about this particular call... but it irked me. Smithy phoned to ask if I could drive up to visit her and a large party she had decided to throw. Nothing odd about that... it was just... her voice, it seemed unusual. I tried to forget about it, and planned to take the night off work to visit her.

Night out at Mooloolaba.
Returning from a night with a group of backpackers in Noosa.
A few nights later I tried calling Smithy, but to no avail... it just kept ringing out. I tried again the next day, but this time it went straight to voice mail (highly unusual). I decided to give her a few days to return my call, before visiting.

Waiting for a bus to take us to where the sun shines best!! (The Beach!)
After a week, or two, I finally called her land line - only to be surprised by her parents picking up the phone. (Not overly odd, as she lived with her parents - I just believed them to be out of town.) When I asked them if I could speak to Smithy, they were taken aback and asked me why I was asking them - as Smithy had told her parents that she was staying for the weekend with me.

Chilling at home.
Smithy's parents and I did a little digging, and found that her mobile, wallet (with money) and overnight bags were still in her room - untouched. None of her other friends knew where she was, or had had any contact with her for several days prior. That was it... gone... with no sign of her whereabouts. Did she run away? Was she attacked? Did she get injured, and was sitting in a hospital with no ID?

Big Day Out
Infinity, Gold Coast
It has now been four and a half years since I last saw or heard from my beautiful friend Catherine Smith. I also lost contact with her parents over time, thanks to a whole range of circumstance. To this day, I still don't know what happened to this beautiful girl... and it's horrible not having any closure. It is a terrible feeling, not knowing where someone is - alive or dead - and I often have horrid dreams of her being stuck somewhere, with no one to help. I recently removed the last few photos of her, bar one, from my home - looking at them almost everyday, and feeling that heart ache, was becoming to overwhelming to bear.

Our Draculas photo is the last photo remaining on display.
I can not imagine what it must be like for families, where this happens to their child or parent. Smithy was a wonderful, loving, caring and soulful individual... and I really hope (as horrible as this will sound) that this was just a really horrible, bitchy way of her cutting me from her life. However, I have had a few friends tell me that she is still on the missing persons list... I'm not so sure... to be honest, I just don't want to think about it anymore. To anyone who has ever experienced someone go missing from their lives, my heart goes out to you. Without closure, how can one move on?




With all the love I have to give,
Chantal
xx

PS - My apologies for any bad sentence structure etc. I didn't want to edit this piece, but just write from the heart. Xx